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I just want God to want me.

2022.01.27 20:38 CamLeGra I just want God to want me.

Backstory: 20 yr old autistic male. Have intense anxiety and suicidal depression.
I was raised in a Christian household, but I never believed. It was so at odds with the way I saw the world. So black and white. I've been blessed materially, but my life has been hard. Constant panic attacks, terrible depression and self-esteem. I've been bullied, abandoned, and ignored by basically everyone, even my birth parents, who had me by accident and gave me up at birth.
I've gone to college recently. My generation is phone obsessed and antisocial. The guys are quiet. The girls act scared of everyone. Everyone is wearing these stupid cloth masks and no one talks to each other. I feel more lonely than I ever have. I've tried to end things 47 times. Each time, the belt doesn't pull tight enough.
So I tried becoming religious. I'd already read the Bible and was familiar with biblical lore (mythology was a special interest, at a time.) So combined with copium-levels of self-improvement (which I was already doing), I became the model Christian, for about three weeks. I earnestly convinced myself to believe.
I gave up porn, swearing, prayed constantly... after a while I stopped even praying for "stuff" like a single friend or finding my purpose. Instead just for basic things... humility to accept the cards I was dealt... help quitting porn... even just those special spiritual experiences Christians talk about so wearily often.
I'm not a Bible noob. I can probably quote more scripture off the cuff than 50% of Christians. I begged, pleaded, changed, was on my knees with tears in my eyes every morning for God to give me something that showed me he wanted me.
I guess he doesn't. I haven't tried to seek Christianity for about two months now. But I still feel something is missing. When I first turned and asked for power from the Holy Spirit, I felt nothing. But I know something is missing.
Meds don't work. Therapists are abusive con-women. I only have online friends from before I moved, and at my new college, everyone acts like a douchebag. I try self-improvement but I still feel so worthless, unhappy, and ugly.
Why doesn't Jesus want me? I want so badly to just be a sheep and let him lead me but I've never even felt his love. It just seems more like a bunch of threats to an invisible force I can't sense or perceive. I've never seen a miracle.
Tonight, after my 11th panic attack in two days, I feel more hopeless than ever, even though I have more muscle, have lost more weight, and have less of a workload than I ever have. What am I supposed to do? :'(
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2022.01.27 20:38 Isusujsasa [26/F] Hey. Feeling alone! I hope you can help!

Really feel like all my friends were fake and I wasted years investing in people who didn’t even care about me it sucks how I had to cut people off who were mentally bullying me and draining me like I was a punching bag I wish I had real genuine people in my life. I am posting this here so i can find some new ones in my life :)
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2022.01.27 20:38 AirCloudz Welp. The time has come. I have been promoted.

It's been a pleasure helping you all and may you find peace and happiness outside Walmart.

Amazon here I come!
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2022.01.27 20:38 UTFO Jacinda Ardern’s poll rating at lowest since becoming New Zealand’s PM

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2022.01.27 20:38 n0ahbody Latin America emerging from years of U.S.-backed dictatorships: professor

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2022.01.27 20:38 pesochrisss Trading 300 Million PSX Gems for Adopt Me Pets

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2022.01.27 20:38 themorningsquad Hello I'm a small youtuber looking to improve and grow, so if you could check out my video and leave some feedback it would be appreciated. Also feel free to like and subscribe :)

Hello I'm a small youtuber looking to improve and grow, so if you could check out my video and leave some feedback it would be appreciated. Also feel free to like and subscribe :) submitted by themorningsquad to PromoteGamingVideos [link] [comments]

2022.01.27 20:38 kuribute Some help needed with a vdi file

Hello everyone! I'm quite new in this VM wold, so I'm not exactly sure if I'm doing everything right. A friend of mine gave me a .vdi file for a Windows 7 virtual machine, however, when I try to use it with the VirtualBox an error appears (not sure what it means).
I'm using VirtualBox 6.1 in a MacBook Air running macOS Big Sur (11.6.2). No Host Extension nor Guest Additions. I'm trying to use the vdi file using the exact path in the VirtualBox:
New -> (name of the VM, checking if it is Windows 7) -> 2GB of RAM -> Use existing Virtual Hard Disk File -> then I choose the vdi that I always put in the newly VM folder.
The error log is:
Failed to open the disk image file /Users/myname/VirtualBox VMs/Teste5/Windows 7 - Control-M V9.vdi.
Could not get the storage format of the medium '/Users/myname/VirtualBox VMs/Teste5/Windows 7 - Control-M V9.vdi' (VERR_NOT_SUPPORTED).
Result Code: VBOX_E_IPRT_ERROR (0x80BB0005)Component: MediumWrapInterface: IMedium {ad47ad09-787b-44ab-b343-a082a3f2dfb1}Callee: IVirtualBox {d0a0163f-e254-4e5b-a1f2-011cf991c38d}Callee RC: VBOX_E_OBJECT_NOT_FOUND (0x80BB0001)
Thanks for your time and help :)
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2022.01.27 20:38 queeniewasabloonde Get $10 off any order at Knix with code SARINARENE10!

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2022.01.27 20:38 moultonrock I think my account may have been hacked... please help.

Hello Everybody,
Disclaimer, this problem is very similar to a post made here about 2 months ago: (https://www.reddit.com/Etsy/comments/qxx59j/was_my_etsy_account_hacked_or_closed_im_very/) but I am hoping to get some more answers.
I opened my very own Etsy Shop yesterday and was very excited about it! And then, today at about noon, I received an email from "support@etsy.com" with the subject line " IMPORTANT: Your shop's bank account has been unlinked". In the message, it said " An Etsy admin has unlinked the bank account connected to your Etsy shop". It listed some details about my bank account that had been unlinked, and the email looked VERY legit to me. About 3 minutes later, I got another email from "Etsy Trust and Safety noreply@mail.etsy.com" saying they limited access to my account because of possible suspicious activity. The weird thing is, the first email contained a button to access my account, but I didn't see either of the two emails until over 30 minutes later. I concluded that if I had pressed the button on the first email, it might have caused a security thread that triggered the second email, but this is not the case because both emails showed up in my inbox before I noticed or even opened either one of them.
Anyways, my shop has been closed, and I have no idea how to reopen it. I reset my password twice, but basically cannot do anything related to my shop because it is closed. I tried to email Etsy customer support but I doubt they will get back to me any time soon.
I don't know if I was hacked, or if the emails were legit or not. I need help! Does anybody have experience receiving emails from either one of these email accounts? If anybody has any insight, please let me know. My new shop barely made it 24 hours :(
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2022.01.27 20:38 Serious-Ham The State of Xbox Game Studios, Bethesda Softworks, and Activision Blizzard King: A breakdown of all the Confirmed Projects, Leaks, and Rumors for the Future of Microsoft's Gaming Division

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2022.01.27 20:38 javgirl123 Order showing completed and “ auto accepted” but

I have not received it. CP tracking shows it is still delayed.
This has never happened to me. I have written PM but does anyone know why this would happen?
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2022.01.27 20:38 deciBel42 Streaming issue I can unable to resolve

I attempted to stream from my PS4 console this evening. Even though it is saying "On Air" with a red dot on my console, my twitch channel through my browser still says offline. After going offline and back online a few times. I did finally get it to pop up that I was online, but it was buffering every few seconds.
I attempted relogging into my twitch through my console to reset any account changes (I can't remember if I've changed my password on twitch since I last used my console to stream). I also reset my network connection. I attempted plugging the console directly into the router using an ethernet.
I then attempted to stream from my PC using OBS Studio, and it says I have a very poor connection and I am dropping about 70 - 90% of my frames, only reaching a bitrate of about 150 - 200Kbps (I usually stream at 3,000Kbps). I have checked my internet connection and it is running perfectly smoothly. I even attempted to upload a 1GB file to my Google drive which also uploaded very smoothly. I attempted to stream to a different twitch server which gave the same result.
I have streamed from my console semi-recently with no issues whatsoever. And haven't changed any settings since that time. Does anyone have any further suggestions I haven't attempted above?
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2022.01.27 20:38 twor76 Sports Bras are fun

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2022.01.27 20:38 744464 Can a 6 foot muscular white guy with an 8" cock and chiseled jaw ever find love?

The gay community is so shallow and I'm so shy and ugly. 😳
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2022.01.27 20:38 childrenofthegravee No Valentines Club, me, digital, 2022

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2022.01.27 20:38 Maddenisstillbroken Am i the only one who gets Uber Eats/Doordash coupon notifications, that then just blatantly don't work?

I have gotten an absurd amount of notifications about coupons from my doordash and uber eats app on my phone. But its incredibly frustrating because i'd say 90% of them just straight up don't work or redeem, to the point i'm convinced this is on purpose to get me to the checkout screen and committed to ordering food before finding out i'd have to pay full price. Does this happen to anyone else? I cannot emphasize enough how this happens whether i open the notification the same time it comes in, or even manually enter the promo code that they gave in it.
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2022.01.27 20:38 MishaTheRussian750 Any cyclists on campus want a free 700x45-50 Schrader tube? Accidentally bought the wrong size and wanted to see if someone here was in need of one. PM if so

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2022.01.27 20:38 memelord152 are my work outs supposed to be so short?

I just started working out, less then 2 weeks in. but i’ve noticed that my work outs are super short. like less then 30 minutes. am i just supposed to be doing the core 3 exercises or should i be sprinkling in other exercises?
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2022.01.27 20:38 Higoroso David is sure confused

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2022.01.27 20:38 Nervous-Drink9769 Where do you store your heart rate monitor?

After losing one heart rate monitor and having a scare that I lost the second I definitely need to have a place where I put mine after each class. Where/ how do you store yours between classes?
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2022.01.27 20:38 navdude101 Calibration prints all seem the same.

I just got a Photon Mono X and I'm using anycubic basic grey resin. I've printed 10 XP2 calibration prints and they all look the same. I made sure I changed the exposure times for each print prior to slicing and saving in chitubox. On every print, the lettering is completely unreadable. The pins and voids, as well as the infinity symbol, all look the same. Any ideas? I can post pictures if it helps.
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2022.01.27 20:38 loss_confused First Year of Practice

Posting from my alt because too many people know my primary.
For those of you that have graduated, passed the bar, and are currently practicing, how did your first year of practice go? Were you actually doing things or just kinda… there?
Currently, I’m in-house and I feel like I’m little more than a glorified assistant. I need to know if I’m being overly critical of my position and it’s normal or if I should be looking for other opportunities.
Happy to provide extra info (within reason) if needed/asked.
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2022.01.27 20:38 cherry7812 Is it possible to come off your medication?

I currently have 2.5 mg of Olanzapine which is an already low dose, I have at least 1-2 episodes a week, which are not too bad as I can quickly recover from them. I don’t want to stay on this medication for ever. Is it possible to be completely be med free and still manage the disorder? I’ve been on various doses of olanzapine for about 5-6 years and this summer got on a low dose. The weight gain and side effects are something I don’t want to deal with. My doctor keeps saying there is a risk with discontinuing or reducing the medication until I am fully established in my career and life. I am a 23f graduate student.
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2022.01.27 20:38 Rakall12 [question] Anyway to bypass radio mode on latest version?

The latest version works with Android Auto fully (all the menus and playlists work) but it only plays radio.
4.27.50 can play on demand but it doesn't work with Android Auto fully. I can pause/play, skip/prev track but only after I start the playlist from my phone.
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